Kay, so this summer is getting A LOT better.

Let’s just say; DEGRASSI.

Degrassi has litterally cheered this summer up a lot.
Tumblr too.

I’m a part of the DTC now. :’)

I feel really welcome here.

So yeah, I hope the rest of this summer is amazing~

I’m going camping at Old Orchard Beach this weekend.♥

Bye~!

Kay so like. Basically, me and my Nicole are no longer together.

I was the one to break it up.

I need some time to think.

Maybe in the future we’ll be back together.

I just need time. :’I

How much does it take to be happy?

Well.

It is August 4th, 2011. :D

A LOT has changed since I’ve written here..

Eh..

But anyways, sorry I never wrote in this this summer.

My summer sorta sucked.

I mean it’s not over, but yeah.

What happened at Camp KV, the new place I had to go to this year:

My friend Josie was ignoring me, not hanging out with me while I was all alone..

I sat there crying, but no, she kept ignoring me to go hang out with Ana and Mahayla..

Then later in the day, I asked her why she was doing this..

She said “I can’t be around your negative energy. You always have it. You are just like Lauren.”

I sighed and got angry..

I also, by the way, was really physically sick too. I had a killer headache, and I couldn’t eat lunch.. I honestly think some of it was emotional reasons too, but yeah..

By the way again, Josie lied to me about something that I would have been there for her..

But oh well, she’s just a f****** back-stabbing bitch anyways.

But then, when I planned on going home crying to mom and pleading to not make me go there, Jaden and Jared could tell I wasn’t happy I suppose. 

At L.O.G.S., they came over to me and hung out with me, made me laugh, told me “We’re always here for you. And we’ll do anything to cheer you up.” , and more. 

Yeah, all three of us got put in time out for fooling around, but it was worth it.

Jaden also made me laugh up at the Upper Field. 

When it was time to go home, I was in a happy mood, because of them.

I got on the bus, planning to sit alone, like I always do, but then Jaden goes “I’m gonna come up there and sit with you, kay?”

I said yes in a heartbeat.

We had fun shouting Friday by Rebecca Black the whole way. : D

And we fooled around on the app Songify, and more.

He made me not go home crying.

Thank you Jaden Allen, and Jared Patterson.

You guys are amazing, and you two will always be in my heart.

Love you both. <3

But after that, I went to supper with my Memere.

I opened up to her about my depression and stuff.

It felt good.

Then she took me to Kohls to try on clothes.

Everything was going fine, and I wasn’t upset about my 142 pound stomach.

I’m almost in my mom’s pant size though.. and my mom is 220 something pounds I think.. *sighs*

So she all of a sudden said “You have a big belly. Loose some pounds. Your almost in YOUR MOM’S pant size. That’s sad.”

I got upset, but not to bad. I don’t let her get to me much anymore.

I said back in a calm tone “Look, I am content with my weight. I’ve only gained 2 pounds since March. It’s great. Nothing you say can change that.”

It went silent after.

But I had acted really good with her this time.

So an hour after I got home, she calls my mom on the phone.

And says “Victoria was negative, and had such an awful attitude.”

WHAT THE F***.

I was good, nice, everything..

After everything she says that.

Holy shit.

I’m so sick of everyone wanting me to be perfect.

I AM NOT PERFECT.

NOR WILL I EVER BE.

DEAL WITH IT, OKAY?

..Ugh.

So after all of that, I cried and sang myself to sleep.

Summer camp ended last week. It was sooooo sad. It was like saying goodbye to the summer. And, that week had some pretty shitty days. A girl named LAKIN almost killed my friendship with Sabrina. LAKIN is a bitch. Me and Sabrina made it tho. We might be going to funtown/splashtown this Saturday!!! yay! I’m writing a new song, and a parody to Teenage Dream-Katy Perry. It’s called “Sillybandz Dream”. My actual song is called…I dunno yet. Isn’t that a great title? That’s what it’s litteraly called. I love songwriting and singing. Anyways, this week I’m at my Memere’s. I wanna go home ): I have been texting and calling Jaden lately. He is awesome. <3

Ok, Jaden was the disgusting, idiotic, funny, amazing, nice, sweet, boy that was our friend. He went to Me and Sabrina’s summer camp. We were both his friends. We will miss him soooooo much. I don’t think were gonna see him again. We hope he has a good life back in Ohio. We love you as a friend Jaden!

Sorry I haven’t written in sooooooo long. Didn’t go on tumblr l8ly. Anyways, Sabrina wasn’t at summer camp this week. I went on Monday. The thing about her and the boy got out. (Ouhhh Shit). I am worried about it because he asked out almost all the girls that week. We think he knew she would say yes, so he asked her out. She is gonna find out before she says anything to him. I didn’t go this whole week except Monday. So, I am O.K. l8ly. I am thinking a lot about a guy I liked from my school. I dunno why. I NEED to see him again. I’ll find a way…O.K. so I am having a good friday but I am simply sore and having my . <————- If you know what I mean. Ugh. Well, bye for now. Luvies! 

We went to the mall again today. But today I didn’t bring my video camera this time. I got new I-pod headphones, A notebook, and earrings. FUN!!! Once we got back, my mom slept for like 4 hours and I ate lunch and supper. Then we just went in the pool. Me and my mom were trying to catch the little white ball in our sticks. lol. It was fun. Then now here I am on the laptop relaxing. Yah!!! G’night!!! 

Today was awesome. My camp went to the Museum. I happened to be in Erika’s group with 4 other people. Was one of them Sabrina? Nope. Oh well. I was mad that out of all the counselor’s, I was in Erika’s group. Our group behaved very well. Guess what? ME and ERIKA got ALONG!!! No fighting AT ALL today!!! I am soooo happy. The exhibits at the museum were cool too. I have had an AMAZING Friday!!! We got Ring Pops (Only Erika’s group did.) because we were the only group out of Group 4 that behaved. It was yummy. I felt bad that Sabrina didn’t get one, cause I know she behaved. Ok, news about Sabrina!!!! The guy that she liked that I set her up with and all the crap that happened, turned out great. It has been a week since that crap happened and me, her, and him are good friends. He asked her out today!!! She said…YES!!! I am soooo happy for her. Except…I am a little upset. I feel like I couldn’t get a bf to save my life. Yah, Horrid feeling. But I should be happy for her so I will be. Well, goodnight. TTYL!